Haha, ano ba yan. Sa lahat ng masesend, at ng masesendan, sa kanya pa. Haay. Wah. Anu nalang yon. :( Haay kakahiya. Haay. Haaa...
Friday, February 27, 2009
Pagkatapos ng 141, bumaba kaming tatlo. Naupo sa may gilid ng lobby. Walang silya. Pinagpilian na ang mga topic sa term paper. Nagmamadali si Karl kaya minadali namin. Tinanong nya kung ano number ni Karl, tapos itinuro naman niya ako. Edi naisip kong hanapin na sa mobile ko yung number. Naglakad na kami papuntang cafeteria. Nakita ko na. Edi inabot ko sa kanya para kopyahin nya. Sabi ko, bilis-bilisan naman nya. Aba, at lalo namang binagalan! Sabi ko, nananadya ka yata e. Tapos sabi nya, ay mali na tuloy dapat ko nang uliting kopyahin. Naglakad...
Thursday, February 26, 2009
I just checked some comment on my Facebook. Len is my primary photo, and I’m proud of it :) Anyone could be his fan. Who couldn’t resist his charm? Anyway, this post is not about Len, nor La Corda D’oro ~Primo passo~. It’s about the word itself in the title—crescendo. I tried to recall my music lessons, or something that would remind me of its meaning, but I couldn’t relate anything to it but the crescent. So I decided to google it. Lol. And so I came up with the meaning about peak, climax, and intensity. So there it went, I thought of all other...
Do you know what it’s like to drown? I don’t. Well, sort of. Okay. So I’m so not in the mood to write something as good as the papers which were graded 1, but let me be this time. I need to write to relieve this eerie feeling. Did I cry? Oh come on, I DIDN’T!! You’re lying. :( I so wanna scream. What? Did I just say that?...
I returned to our house only to know that I need to raise the white flag, or the SOS flag, or anything that I need to do to ah… forget it. Erase. Okay, so I went home, got struck by something, realized I did wrong things, and also decided that it’s not worth my time. I tried the ignore mantra taught to me but it didn’t work out. So I started exploring Facebook and Plurk, and it alleviated my unusual heavy feeling and that. I saw many interesting things there, and also in Plurked I could use Japanese characters already. Wow. I used chrome and was...
The sight of them just made my jaw drop. When I took a short leisurely stroll along CBA and SE earlier, man, the leaves just struck me. I crossed from there to Sunken and saw more leaves. I suddenly wondered if I’m in the Autumn season or what. Doesn’t matter if they’re too messy in one’s sight, but definitely for me it was wonderful. Leaves continued to fall down from various trees along SE. The wind accompanied them. It was pretty much a sight, and I was struck by it. When I checked the time, it’s time for me to go home. I really don’t want...
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
I wouldn’t wonder why my head aches this much tonight. Earlier, it’s my treat again, and I ordered nilagang baka. He ordered just palabok. So we ate again together, under the heat of the sun outside the cafeteria. There were peculiarly many people that lunchtime, and we bet they’re not UP students (or NCPAG Students to say the least). He finished first as usual, and I continued chatting with him while he does his Accounting 1 assignment. I wanted to take his picture while seriously engaged in his school work, but honestly I can’t make myself do...
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Like blocks, every single thing in our life composes us and makes us whole. And when some block gets off the tower, it could either ruin the entire tower or not do any effect on it. That’s the same as little things that we experience everyday. And the only thing is it’s hard to rebuild our tower—especially if its something intangible. So much for citing something and the like, I would just want to share some things me and my guy friend RA had talked about earlier. It’s all about interim relationships. First, let’s clearly define what interim here...
This sounds like a crazy phrase, but it actuality, it could be “Kiss and Make out”. Haha, not funny. Anyway, earlier I met with my estranged for two days you-know-who in Trinoma, and yes, it was a KaMo. Haha. Oh well, that was the one last thing I could ever think we’ll be doing—to meet somewhere there and do the usual Time Zone and lunch date. Of course, it’s at Mc Donald’s since it’s my recent addiction. Anyway, after eating, we spent 35 pesos...
Monday, February 23, 2009
The best of romances, deserve second chances I don’t believe in this line of a certain song. And also, I don’t like the concept of the John Lloyd-Bea film with the same title in my post. As my friend said, it’s mostly about love lost… and found. Once you lose something, it’s never coming back to you. But if you insist of getting it back, chances are it will work—but most of the things that are essential have already flown away. You’ll only have something that’s a mere per cent of what you actually lost. You will acquire it,...
For the first time, I wasn’t lost at all. My observation powers worked correctly. Plus, I used a new route to school earlier. Everything went smoothly, till the end. I wasn’t as happy nor as normal as I am usually acting, but then I could clearly remember what my purpose is today. That is, to be oriented for our SLO aka OJT for PA 121 at CSC-NCR. I was so ready for some other accidents, getting losts, and all others except this: our Prof’s letter wasn’t sent there!! I didn’t panic. I texted a couple of friends and unavailable classmates during...
作詞: D.A.Thomas & ats 作曲: D.A.Thomas If you haven’t changed your mind そばにいてほしいよ Tonight 強がることに疲れたの 幼すぎたの Everytime I think about you baby 今なら言える I miss you It’s so hard to say I’m sorry たとえば 誰かのためじゃなく あなたのために 歌いたい この歌を 終わらない story 続くこの輝きに Always 伝えたい ずっと永遠に Memories of our time together 消さなで このまま don’t go away あたたかく溶けだして 確かめるの 優しさのしずく この胸にひろがってく 切ないほどに I’m missing you 重ねた手 離さないで たとえば 叶うなら もう一度あなたのために 歌いたい この歌を 終わらない STORY 絶え間ない愛しさで Tell me why 教えてよ ずっと永遠に たとえば...
I looked up at a certain collection of stuff said, and found out that yesterday’s things have been deleted. I didn’t mind everything that went on yesterday and last night, but now and of course this morning, it all sunk in. My chest suddenly felt the upheaval I already expected to come. I assured myself calmly of all positive things that there is… but now, none of them seemed helpful. My head is filled swirling thoughts—possibly created by guilt and regret. If it is not because of certain things I saw myself, I wouldn’t feel this way. Maybe it’s...
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Argh. I can’t put up words to make paragraphs now. This could be an outstanding effect of Plurking in me. It’s always been like this. I give up in the end. I seemed to have hurt someone in the end. Then guilt strikes back. I wish it won’t work now. I have had enough. Kill this conscience. Annihilate this guilt. Exterminate these emotions. Could anyone do that for me? &nb...
Someone annoyed me to the last straw today. He said he didn’t mean it. If he really didn’t mean it, well I don’t really care. He said sorry, but I don’t think he means it. Like I care. But then, I feel more annoyed. I don’t think I’d still want see him tomorrow. Or see him at all. That’s what he deserves. For all those times he tickled me to death, and those annoying phrases he said. Everything has a price to pay. If only I could say that I don’t want to be with him any longer… I’d probably say those words one of these days. Wait...
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Earlier today, it was decided that I was allowed to go on a movie date. It was supposedly at the Rizal Park in our plans, but then it backfired since we came out from my house late. Going to rakuens and that needed to be early in the morning. Anyway, we just had our breakfast at Rob and decided to spend an hour and a half playing different new games at Time zone. Right after that, we had to go to the movies and watch Confessions of a Shopaholic and have a good time. After that, we decided to go for the next film which will be shown at 4:20 in...
Friday, February 20, 2009
Wooh! Earlier I was so grounded. Yeah, I wasn’t allowed to go to the date movie with my you-know-who. Anyway, I was absent for 113 because of our assignment in 141. I was with my classmate Albert and then I suddenly wanted to go to the mall and shop for DVDs. So he tagged along and decided to be absent for his classes. Anyway, we decided to go to Megamall together, so I texted my boyfriend to meet us there. We rode the MRT green jeep, and obviously the MRT to Ortigas station. Then we walked as we talked, then to Comic Alley we went. Afterwards,...
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I think of people as something with an automatic barrier when they are about to get hurt—whether that be emotionally (most of the time) or physically. Aw, I do hate it when it is switched on. Some people are mostly annoying when their defenses are on. The tendency to me is to continuously insist my point and not be fazed by that. What happens is that I hurt that person more. And so, I get annoyed more… Hmn, Posts are getting shorter here. Is this because of micro-blogging? Duh. Tell me about ...
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Ang Plurk. Di ko alam ang ibig sabihin nito. Ingles ba yan? Siguro nga. Anyway, isa nanaman ito sa roster ng social networks na nauuso sa mga kabatch at di ko kabatch. Basta dun sa mga mahilig magblog at makipagsosyalan sa net. Nang dahil dito, nabawas-bawasan ang pagYYM namin at ang kaka-Live namin. Hala. Useless na nga pagiging online e. Well, for some na buhay sa pakikipagchat gaya ko nakakapanibago talaga ang pagbabago. Kasalanan din ng Plurk kung bat kumonti ang posts ko sa blog kong to. Kakatuwa rin pala yon, nung una sobrang complex tapos...
Monday, February 16, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
I really have no idea how this should feel, but… what if the person you allegedly love said something you really don’t want to hear? Something painful was uttered by that person, and you’re not sure if it was either implied, suggested, true, or a simple practical joke. Will it hurt you so much that you want to strangle that person but at the same time hold that person tighter and would not let go? What would it mean to you then? Would you still love this person? Or will you accept what that person just told you as it is? I don’t know how many...
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Since V-day naman, naiinspire ang scenario writing mode ko sa romance. Maraming thoughts ako ngayon, so gusto ko lang i-share. Do you believe in happy endings? E sa once upon a time? Bago kasi yung happily ever after, once upon a time muna. If you won’t start there, then there will be no happy ending. Kaso, elusive nga yon. Like I said sa isang friend before, wala talagang ganung nag-eexist. Since no human is perfect, definitely sa buhay nila wala ring perfection. Falsehood lang ang lahat ng iyon. They were written to be fantasized, idealized....
May cute guy sa may gilid mo. Katabi mo ang boyfriend mo. Di naman halatang tinitingnan mo sya. Pa-glance glance lang ba. Aba, tumingin din sayo. Okay. Para bang may instant attraction. Cute ka rin naman. Cute din siya. Yung type mo talaga. Instantaneous na ito. Lingon na kayo nang lingon sa isa’t-isa. Kala mo ikaw lang yung napapalingon. Di pala. Nahuli mo siya. Nakatitig rin sayo. E nandon nga yung boyfriend mo. Ano, maguguilty ka ba? Minsan ang feeling mo, sayang. Panghihinayang. Ay, iisipin mo pa: “Kung single kaya ako ngayon, makakausap ko...
Minsan napapaisip ako sa mga taong sabi nang sabi na ganto, ganyan. Kasi masyadong inuunahan ka, tapos assertive masyado. Yung parang ipinipilit nyang isipin mong ganun siya kabuti at wala kang dapat ikabahala. Alam mo yun, yung sobrang assurance kasi minsan nakakaduda talaga at nakakatakot. Kasi parang nagiging defensive yung tao ang dating para sakin. Kunyari diba iiinsist mong di ka guilty kahit guilty ka nga, tapos pag wala naman talagang direct na tanong sayo tungkol sa posible mong gawin, bigla kang magsasalita na “Hindi ko gagawin yon” o...
Title ito ng isang Korean Film. Hehe, di naman ito ang ikukwento ko dahil di ko pinanood at wala akong balak na panoorin ang film na ito. Action kasi masyado. Anyway, napakarami raw BITTTER ngayong Valentine’s Day. Sinu-sino ba tong mga to? Karamihan kaklase at mga dating kaklase ko. Dateless. Hehe. Isa ako dun, so bitter din ba ako? Hmn. Bitter? Bittersweet? Hehe. Parang Meiji Black o any other dark choco. Di ko maexplain. Oh, san ka pa? Basta, sarap ng tulog ko buong araw. Okay na ring walang date sa hapon o umaga o gabi ng V-day, kaninang madaling...
Friday, February 13, 2009
Grabe. Ganto pala yung feeling nang sobrang pagod. Biruin mo kulangin ka sa tulog, tapos kulitin ka ng isang kaklase at pahabulin ka sa AS walk, mapagod ka pa sa kung anong activity sa kung anong lugar after, pumila ka ng mahigit dalawang oras para sa isang event, at siyempre yung umuwi ng madaling araw. Wala ka nang matinu-tinong maisip. Pero, nakakapag-blog parin nman ako. Gulo ng araw ko, sobra. Ubos energy ko at ng mobile phone ko. Yung isa kong friend nagback-out na. Tagal ng pila. Walang kwenta ang organizer ng event. Di maayos ang entrance...
Thursday, February 12, 2009
I only took notice of dreams when they’re one of the weirdest, and of course when they have a weird plot. Earlier, I dreamed of a lot of things: calling out our dog Shabutaro but him ignoring me so I called him Lassie and he still didn’t look, registering for a cedula at a dark and weird Municipal office/city hall with personnel that doubt my UP Form 5 as something to use for registration, a party in our house with a pink cake and all my other friends as attendees, a new empty house with 10 floors and the 10th floor is a storage room where...
Yes, sa wakas, finally… May bago na kong UP Diliman ID! Yung me Centennial logo? Hehe. Tagal ko tong pinangarap. I mean, ang sagwa nung luma kong ID. Brown na siya (or naninilaw if that’s the correct description) and that. And of course, bago na ang college ko since last year kaya dapat last year pa yun napalitan. I’m proud to be part of NCPAG (naks!) na and I don’t want to be associated with College of Eng’g (peace!). So ayan, happy mode...
Campaign period nanaman. Samu’t-saring kulay nanaman ang bumabandera sa Diliman campus. Sa college palang namin ramdam na ramdam na ang botohan. Kesyo campaign dito sa isang klase at campaign din dito sa susunod. Buong araw yan. May mga prof na ayaw pumayag, may mga okay naman at makikinig rin. Kanya-kanya sila ng stand sa Referendum last time, sa Charter, sa walang-kamatayang Tofi issue, sa Ayala Technohub, at yung kanina, grabe. Personalan na yata. Nangampanya yung isang party sa 121 class namin, at kaklase namin yung isang kumakandidatong NCPAG...
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Old friends, they never went away. They’ve just been missing for some time. In the end, they’ll come and say hello to you again. Recently, I ran into quite many of them. Common hellos and how are you?’s were exchanged. It’s funny how we can still talk about a lot of things we had encountered before. Maybe it’s what we call reminiscing. A lot has changed—from our physical attributes (haircut, skin color, facial expression, faces… hehe) to the emotional well-being of each one. Many had successful relationships, social life and others remained in...
Back with Windows Live Writer. I can’t believe I would actually have the chance to buy fair tickets at a very low cost. My classmate earlier had told me that her classmate in English 1 is selling two tickets with discounts. Ooh. Around 30 pesos discount? That’s not too bad. Those tickets are for Loverage 3 on February “Friday the 13th”. LOVERAGE3: Break the Curse, the third installment of the iconic LOVERAGE concert, is a pre-Valentine and Valentine...
I can't find my favorite color here... oh well, this will do.I stared blankly at the GAA for DOLE OSec and just stared at it for another 5 seconds... nothing seems to enter my mind. I already wasted a good thirty minutes and that's equivalent to 13 Pesos, and I'm at PC number 13. No one's online in my YM list and everyone's on the usual I'm mobile again. I sighed in dismay for I must be in class and not typing whatsoevers in this blog.I tried to write something, open the Word doc and let my mind roam. Okay, so I was also thinking of dropping 131...
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
My heart thumps faster and I cannot tell why. Oh, is this the pressure on 131 still living within the recesses of my mind? Duh. Tell me about it. I only woke up having a dream of a weird building with 30 floors (or was it 45), and I was there in an elevator with my mom and my girl friend’s ex-boyfriend. We were talking when I pressed wrong buttons, and ending up skyrocketing to the 70th or was it 80th floor. I tried to prevent it from totally crashing up, and I pulled a sort of emergency trigger (a rope). It did help, a bit, and the next thing...
Earlier, I have tons of things to discuss in my blog but then my mindset went as far as the sensation of eating French Fries with ketchup. So far, I’m just quite concerned for the PA 131 paper on Budget Analysis—with Department of Labor and Employment- Office of the Secretary as my agency to analyze. I can’t think of “Fiscal ways” to understand and analyze a past and projected budget. I don’t have the so-called “Fiscal thinking”. This gives me too much ill feelings. I never thought 131 has this so much pressure and requirements, and that it’s...
Monday, February 9, 2009
Crocodiles under a tree sprouting to get you, a large tree inside a second floor building, two exorcists, Card Captor Sakura within me, a badminton tournament, and school chaos, someone on MMK, a birthday cut-out heart, an icing placed on top of a fruit cake bought for one peso, a weird gift shop—those were the elements of my dream earlier. Truly, it was one of the weirdest at this time. I could not possibly remember everyone that had been in my dream except for those I know—my mom, C-chan, Katrina, Chasen, Jose, Ronces, Mrs. Zabala (deceased...
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Friday, I was quite early for my 141 class. The corridors are quite dark even though it’s already 11:30. I walked quietly in the lazy way I usually have towards room 201. Suddenly, I saw him solemnly looking at the floor, and I’m still uncertain if he saw me. I passed by him ever so quietly, and I was surprised when he grabbed my right wrist and swayed it the usual way he does when he sees me. “It’s your treat today.” oh, I remember. I smiled and I sat beside him. We talked for quite a long time and we decided to stay just right there since it’s...
You’re looking for someone new. You meet a guy and immediately wonder if he’s available, forgetting that you’re not. Let’s set this straight. Okay, so I tried my best to really involve myself with him with the past months. I have organized myself to quit everything for the nth time, trying to make something right out of everything. I’ve even done tons of things that are most likely not what I’m supposed to be doing, but after that, still nothing. I instill him in my mind for hours, trying to add something with romance. I quit some slideshows...
Would anyone believe someone because he just said so? Let’s rephrase that: Would anyone not doubt someone because he simply said so? Whatever the case is, it is quite difficult to tell a lie from a truth. Or to identify epic tales of some happening from it’s luths, or tries. However, it is also confusing to think of the underlying incidents in a short answer. Yes, that’s where the I-just-said-so things come into the picture. See that? It’s so easy for me to lie. Yeah, come to think of it, I do it almost everyday. If we’ll count the days I lived...
I woke up this late only to know my net connection was “accidentally” pulled out—the power source, that is. Hysterically, I pulled it back again, hoping for a fine connection. I was wrong. Certainly, there was something that triggered for a slow net and I won’t bother knowing what it is. I just continued reading from a weblog site and it made my mood happier. Oh, really happier. From last night or should I include afternoon, we’ve been in a marathon of Whispering Corridors (movies 1-3) only to stop at the third film since I find it so creepy already....
Thursday, February 5, 2009
6 am, my biological clock worked. I settled in front of my Tablemate (TM) and opened the laptop. Light seeped into my eyes. I started working with the paper I had been doing since yesterday—it only has one short paragraph as an introduction. Before starting, I reviewed the MTPDP, closed all other YM windows, read some unread messages while I’m asleep, and finally checked my torrents. Suddenly, everything just occurred to me as if I was possessed by a writing ghost. My fingers worked quickly across the keyboard, and in thirty minutes, I finished...
I’m at a loss. I cannot start my PA 108 Reaction Paper on the MTDP 22nd Chapter. God, I feel so useless and bummed. I can’t think normally. Was I expecting something else tomorrow? Oh. Talk about tomorrow. I think I won’t be able to interact with someone unless he goes to the Forum. Oh, right, he has classes. Oh well what should I do? Only 12 hours left. Puun. Even in my blog I can’t write a single meaningful thing. So sad. :( Arienaittsu no!! ...
For a change, it could be said that we’re better than before. Or maybe more matured. Something like that sort. But to me, it’s as if we’re going circles in a cycle—and up to this time, I can’t determine whether it’s vicious or detrimental-lovely or sentimental. Nobody can ever predict the future, but my instincts have gone to the next level. Gut feeling has been more reliable, subconscious has told me more realities beforehand. I could even detect stuff which are hidden and in one out of the blue choice, I could get what I wanted. Life has never...
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Ikinalulungkot ko man para sa mga umaasa, sinabi ko na ang katotohanan nung isang araw… Kaya, Sir Manny H, magkakaroon din ng tamang tao para humalili sa pwesto ko sa uh… JinSan. Yan ang sagot ko sa press statement nya nung Feb 2, 2009: "Nakekeesa aku sa pagloloksa ng boong longsod ng JinSan. Nawalan kame ng esang ena na magtagoyod sana ng dibilupment at pes en urder sa JinSan. Subrang kalongkot naman, kase mahal na mahal namen ang mga Heranyawungkol. Ets su dibesteyting..." Naalala ko tuloy bigla si Sir Manny sa role ni Mark Bautista sa...
My Wednesdays and Fridays won’t be complete without a treat from him or from me. As the days passed by this semester, I do feel that he’s slowly becoming a part of my system. Although our conversations have not much changed since then—our relationships, school work, anime, random life experiences, likes, hates, people we do know a lot, psychology… it doesn’t seem to matter anymore. What’s becoming more important is the weird thing that you can see when we’re together: we seem to enjoy each other’s company. We both hated walking under the heat of...
Monday, February 2, 2009
Kanina, maaga kaming lumarga ni Hani papuntang City Hall—actually, nagkita kami jan sa Jobi simbahan. Tapos, bumulaga samin yung parang assembly ng lahat ng pulis, city hall officers and employees, at kung sinu-sino pang workers of the government. Inakyat namin yung footbridge above the head na nakapalibot sa me LICS. Anyway, saktong pagbalik namin sa me city hall natapos na yung assembly, only to know na iba yung pila para sa registration. Aba,...
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Ang life, maraming choices. Araw-araw meron, at madalas, problema sakin ang pagpili. Halimbawa, kagigising ko palang tanong kagad ang bubungad sakin: “Anong ulam gusto mo?”, siyempre mapapaisip ako nang malalim don. Napakaraming dapat piliin. HIndi lang ulam ang tinutukoy ko. Kahit yung akala mong simpleng bagay, pero hindi naman pala. Kunyari yung bangs ko. Saang direksyon ko hahawiin? Kaliwa o kanan? San ba mas bagay? Kung kasing conscious mo ako sa pagpili, makakarelate ka. Tsaka, diba ang tao gahaman at gusto palagi yung nakakabenefit sa kanya?...
Okay, so earlier we went to church and after that I had my “curled” (quote and unquote that) hair cut and repaired (what? :D). So here’s the result (although I didn’t like to post it here, but just as a proof) Before and after: Okay. So left’s before and right’s after. Haha. I kinda miss my long messy hair. :) I have nothing else to say but since today’s the first of February (my favorite month for the second sem) I...
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