All About “J”

Yes, this letter has been invading my mind for the past 7 years now. What’s with this letter that almost everything related to the things that make me go in hanyaan mode involves it? Hmn. Let me enumerate some of it, but please, do not react violently.

 

1. First off is the set of “Johns” in our 2nd year OL Rosary classroom. :)
2. Next is the J’s in my closest guy friends’ names (June, JM, John Gerard, JJJ…).
3. Then third would be initial J of the hated person I had in 3rd year Rose of Lima (no name dropping :D)
4. Followed by my first boyfriend’s first name during 4th year high school
5. Then the nickname of one of my suitors starts with it,
6. Add up to the list would be the name of my first Asian guy idol and crush, Mr. Jerry Yan
7. Seconded by Jay Chou during 4th year high school, thanks to Inital D Live Action (and JKP for introducing him)
8. Then another hated person for end of High School :)
9. And yet another, why would I forget, my first crush during Elementary school, James…
10. Don’t forget High School’s viral J crush :D
11. College days had more than 7 friends with the J initial (JR, Jill, Jester, and a lot more).
12. Had another J Chinese (this time Mainland) crush, he is Jun Ning
13. Ooh, speaking of Jun, my other hot Japanese guy during High School is Arashi’s Jun Matsumoto (Tsukasa of HYD)
14. Then Jun Pyo and Ji Hoo comes along during College (BBF)
15. Still, JS is my current boyfriend,
16. At College, encountered many Jose’s in NCPAG (yea you know who you are :))
17. At UP, encountered the JJ’s in this recent UP Fair (Jumping Jologs, XD)
18. And finally, J is the first letter of my favorite country, JAPAN :)

 

I know there would be more to this that I haven’t included, but this shall do for the meantime. I should add to this if anything comes my way related to this.

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Missing Out

Okay, so normally I won't rant about missing church... but what my cousin has told me made me do it.

Earlier, they asked me if I would come, and I said I'll pass this Sunday since I'm still worn out by last time's happenings. They left and then my cousin texted me: ate, sayang, hinahanap ka ni Chinito kanina. tingin nang tingin sa sasakyan nyo. sayang talaga.

I laughed at it. Siguro isa lang to sa pakana nila para magsimba na talaga ako palagi. Yes, I admit that I am secretly stalking this church guy--he's been in my blog posts since last year (about twice). He has a well built, good stance, nice spiky hair, chinese eyes, fair white complexion and glasses that lure me. He wears dressed-to-kill whenever I see him on church. Although he's not a regular church goer, I spot him out of the many. He gained my attaction that is besoughted by many. Okay. So I made a reality check. The kid won't lie to me.

They arrived at around 1 in the afternoon and my cousin excitedly narrated what she saw that had happened. I countered her statements with baka naman iba yung tinitingnan nya, baka naman yung matatanda ang gusto nya, baka ibang sasakyan yun, baka hindi talaga ako yung hinahanap nya, baka di naman talaga siya naghihintay.. and so on. But what made me think is the statement she said and I quote, Pinaguusapan kasi nung lalaki at ni Chinito kung bakit di pa bumababa ikaw, e wala ka naman don. Tsaka tutok na tutok yung mata sa sasakyan. Binasa pa nga yung UP car sticker nyo e.

Again, if thtat was for the exaggeration, I don't care. But then when she added that Lingon nang lingon sa amin, I said na baka ikaw yung gusto. Then she countered itwith sa kotse nakalingon nung wala na ako eh. I thought of it. She added this much to my disappointment, Ang gara pa ng suot nya this sunday. Akalain mong nakaporma talaga.

Oh well. Whatever it was, I missed out on Chinito. Next Sunday, I'll really come. Of course I want to go to church rin naman. It's just that I won't waste my stamina on Saturday so I could go early to church. :) Let's see kung tama si Crystal.

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Yes Naman, Graduating na SIYA

Oo, inaamin kong inaabatan ko ang updates niya sa net. May pagka-semi-stalker niya ata ako. Net stalker lang naman (btw, hanggang Multiply account palang nya ang nahanap ko so far… so hindi rin siguro ako official stalker). Minsan napapaisip din ako kung bakit ko pa kelangang itago sa sarili ko na hinahanap-hanap pa rin kita. (yes naman, totoo yon!)

Mukha ka talagang kagalang-galang sa bago mong pics. Hehe. Ay, wala na halata na ko masyado. Bigla tuloy akong nag-alangan magpost nito, pero sorry Zel, adik ka sa kapopost ng January. Kakabagung-taon kasi e nagpost kaya tuluy-tuloy na yan. Ika nga, no stopping the action. Whatever.

Basta, good luck sa buhay mo, sa career mo, sa love life… na wala naman akong clue kung meron. I know you’ll make it through everything. Magaling ka eh. Siyempre, kaya nga gusto kita… noon. :) I’m saying these finally kasi I’m also saying goodbye to my interest of you for good (or worse?). Thanks sa inspiration nung last year. I enjoyed your company and all that… basta ingat ka palagi. Okay. Hehe.

This is what you call a net love letter. Makakarating to, panigurado. >_

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Sundays

Ilang beses ko man wag isiping siya lang ang dahilan ng pagpunta ko e hindi ko mapigilan. Alam kong hindi naman talaga siya e. Siyempre, nakagawian ko na rin ang Sunday 9:30 Service sa simbahan at me religious side din naman ako. Kaya lang talaga, gaya nga ng sinabi ko, naiisip ko siya palagi. Pampanira ba ng solemnity ng Linggo ko ang pagkawala o presensya nya? Kasi naman yung taong yon, lulubog-lilitaw. Kulay palitaw. Ang puti niya kasi. Hehe.

Nung isang linggo, pinagtalunan pa namin ni mama kung siya nga yung lalaking nasa me front pew. Tas sabi ko, hindi, kasi medyo kayumanggi yung guy at di spiky yung buhok. Tapos ipinilit niya. Inobserbahan ko pa. Hindi talaga, kasi yung frame ng salamin (glasses) nung guy e makapal (sa katitingin ko ba naman dun sa original edi ko pa makabisa yung kaliit-liitang detalyeng yon!). Haha. Natawa nalang ako nung nalaman kong tama nga ako. Kabisado ko talaga ang looks nya.

Anyway, sana bukas nandon din siya kasi medyo naaapektuhan ng pagpapakita nya ang mood ko. Haha. Happy. :D

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Fridays

There’s this TGIF thingy about Fridays. Before, when I was in Elementary of High school, I do not quite agree with it. Why? Because simply I can’t get to see my friends (Elementary), my crush (High school) and I won’t have allowance (both). But now, I do believe that Fridays could be the best day of the week—especially for someone like me who has a 3-day no class every after Fridays.

A lot of things can be done during Fridays. Usually, my Fridays are reserved for the usual movie dates, whether it be with him or with one or more of my friends. Fridays can also make me go home earlier and spend the rest of the day with my marathons. Fridays can also mean that something should occur later in that day. I do not personally want to elaborate details.

Another thing about Fridays is the usual ending of doramas on TV or some local show. And of course, it’s the air day of one of my favorites on local TV- Bubble Gang. It has always been a ritual for me to watch it, especially the part of “Ang Spoiled” (where Bitoy plays the loser yaya and Ogie gets to play the brat Angelina).

Now that it’s Thursday, it gets me a bit excited for the clock to turn 12 AM later. It only means one thing.

Thank God it’s Friday… already. :D

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Guuzen

It definitely was coincidence at all. Or if it is, then it should be great.

When I plan and hope to see him, it ends up a failure. I always see to it to look for his father, because I know well where and what time he arrives. Earnestly, I hope that he tags along, but seriously I know that he's not into going to church as  I do.

There were exactly three noticeable times I saw him looking my way. The first one was during a random Sunday morning, maybe because I stare at him too much. The second one was on a Sunday afternoon Vesper service. I certainly did not recognize him coming our way because I was busy talking. He appeared right before me, sitting just a few inches beside me. We shook hands that day as for the congregational greeting rites. Nothing special, I guess for him. But to me, it was bliss.

The third and last one was just 2 Sundays ago. I didn't know again that he was coming. It's been an awful 5 months that I haven't seen him. Very well then, he was there. And on cue, I looked his way and unbelievably, his gaze was just right on. My way. Definitely. I felt uneasy because I don't feel like I look like someone worth his time gazing. So I looked away, pretended it was nothing.

Occasional glances followed, of course by me. Then the service ended, making me wanna go to the wash room shortly. When I left, he was with his family on the kneeling area. When I returned, my mom told me that I should've stayed. She said that he was certainly looking for me in a way, because he stood still near the pew we were sitting just when they are about to leave. I didn't believe her. I saddened, since I missed the chance to further see him.

Upon my exit to the church. he was standing right in front of me. He was wearing a red, white- striped shirt in that sunny Sunday. I glanced his way and turned right, going to the newsstand. He did look happy while talking to his siblings. I tried to peek again. Then I left. In our car, I tried to see his blurred image through the window one more time. I guess that will be another last time.

Will he be coming this Sunday, tomorrow?

I hope so. :)

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Ken Hidaka's Birthday

Hail to Ken Hidaka-- the precursor of my anime crushes, my first true love and forever will be my anime love. His brown eyes and hair had first attracted me when I was a 5th grader at Pasig Christian Academy.

From the moment I saw him on GMA 7, I knew it was love. I have fallen for an anime character madly for the first time, and thus I branded him as mine. Following that, the OKAY barkada came about-- Omi, Ken, Aya, Yohji-- but later on we decided to remove Yohji since he's not cute for us. The barkada became OKAV then-- Omi Tsukiyono of Weiss Kreuz, Ken Hidaka of Weiss Kreuz, Aya/Ran of Weiss Kreuz, Van Fanel of Escaflowne. Each letter corresponded to each member's "love" way back then.

Many anime crushes had followed Ken, but no one of them replaced him in the top spot. At some point, I almost rejected him. This was when the time Slam Dunk came to local Philippine Television. I fell for Rukawa Kaede's charm. He became the number one crush for 2 school years. Then Yoh Asakura came and replaced him. That was another 1 and a half year, because Uchiha Sasuke arrived. My world was shook. Sasuke-kun became the number one crush, and I therefore named him as the Ultimate Anime Crush. No other anime character removed him from the spot. Up to this point, 4 years standing, Sasuke-kun is still the anime crush.

I decided to keep Ken Hidaka, of course. He's so memorable. My addiction of him lasted for a good 2 years, but no one really replaced him as my one true love in anime.

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Thai Invasion

It's not that I've changed my preferences. I only added a bit to it.

If you were one of the people who observed and have visited (of course) my profile, you might have noticed that my location now is Krung Thep, Bangkok, Thailand. My "hometown" is still Tokyo, Japan (in my dreams). This signifies my newest addiction, or what I termed now as the "Thai Invasion".

Several reasons became the impetus for the addition of Thai in my music and hot guys preference. First off is Pchy or Witwisit Hirayanwongkul of the August Band. He is, by far, the hottest guy actor and singer I've seen in Thai sector. Next would be the songs of August Band, starting with Pchy's songs of course. Finally, the beginning of everything, JM's persistence and continuous influence. Haha. I can't get through my hatred of Pchy's debut film (The Love of Siam, where his role is GAY) without him. Thanks, dude!

And because of that, I already had this research mania on Thai culture which includes the following: Music, Language, and Literature.

If this mania is seasonal like my Cantonese Pop addiction, we'll see about that.

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Confessions ng Isang One-Sided Lover

Oo! Yun talaga yon! Yung tipong 5 years na di mo parin makalimutan yung pagkaadik mo sa kanya, yung tipong ninanakawan mo ng pictures dito sa friendster, yung tipong kinikilig ka parin kapag online siya (at wala ka rin namang balak siyang kausapin kasi nga parang nahihiya ka na ewan)...

Teka, baka ako lang naman yung ganto!

Sa dinami-dami ng taong kinahumalingan ko mula noong highschool, hindi talaga siya mabura sa isipan ko. Record-breaker siya. Pero sabagay, nauna nga pala siya kay Uchiha Sasuke na nagustuhan ko. Uy! May hint na!

Ang lupit nya. Sa bawat pag-save ko ng photos nya sa friendster, feeling ko ay mas adik na ko sa kanya. Grrr. Kung bakit ba kasi noon hindi ko to maamin na gustung-gusto ko siya. Sa huli, bibigay din pala ako. Ayan, hanggang ngayon... ADIK.

Kung bakit ba naman kasi ang cute-cute talaga niya... pag nakikita ko yung kakaibang mga mata nya (alam mo kasi, yun yung talagang una kong napansin sa kanya)... sobra. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko. Este, alam ko na pala--noon pa. Sinabi ko na 'to noon, at ngayon. Oo, adik parin ako sa'yo.

Hindi ko parin nakakalimutan yang mukha mo, yung mga ikinikilos mo noon (kasi nga, palagi akong nakatingin sa'yo. Nahalata mo na siguro? Kasi yung seatmate ko nabuko ako e. Obvious daw masyado.), yung mga lugar na madalas mong puntahan (hindi lahat!), yung pwesto mo sa canteen... BASTA. Yun na yon, at malinaw naman sigurong gusto talaga kita.

Naaalala ko parin yung araw na una mo kong kinausap. Yung panahong una rin tayong nag-YM (na di ko na inulit kasi todo-kaba ako pag ganon, muntik na nga akong mahimatay :P), nung inadd mo ako sa Friendster mo, nung una kong nakita yung mga pics mo, haaay. Sinave ko rin yung conversation a!

Kasi nga...

Adik parin ako sa'yo.

Diba?

Siyempre kaya ko to sinulat kasi di mo mababasa! Haha, sino nga naman kasi ako para tignan mo? Aminado ako, di ako ganon ka-cute talaga. Wala pa kong porma, tapos hindi ako pansinin. Siguro, nakilala mo lang ako dahil kilala ako ng teachers. O kaya dahil nagtop ako sa isang quiz o exam (totoo yan! Haha, mas malupit ako noong high school! Hahaha!!). Pero, hindi mo naman ako talaga pinapansin. Kaya ang kawawang ako, hanggang patay na patay na tingin lang (panakaw pa yan ha!).

Minsan, excuse ko na titingnan ko si Mama Mary sa altar ng classroom sa gilid, pero ang totoo sa'yo ang tingin ko. Kung sa lahat ng kakilala ko, ikaw siguro ang marerecognize ko kagad ang mukha. Kahit kasi di na tayo magkaklase, sinisilayan parin kita. Nung isang beses, class picture niyo non. Talagang naaliw akong panuorin yung klase nyo. Andun ka kasi.

May isang beses pa nga na aksidenteng nakasalubong kita (nag-iisa ka nun, ewan ko kung bat nasa may library ka) kasama ng barkada ko. Di ako gaanong umimik, nililihim ko kasi kina Marvin, Ronnel at Corro yon noon (pati nga kay Carlos pero napaamin nya ko e). Tapos nung intrams, pinanood ko yung laban niyo ng St. Agustine. Muntik na kong mabuking don! Haha.

Pero nung 4th year, lakas ko. Aminadong-aminado na kong gusto kita. As in ang dami ko nang napagsabihan (sabagay, malaki naman yung barkada ko noon at kaibigan ko halos lahat sa klase). Tapos, kinukuha nila atensyon ko pag dadaan ka sa may classroom namin. Varsity ka na ata nun e. Haha. Pati number nung jersey ng bag mo alam ko. Siyempre, no.

Bakit ko ba to kailangang sabihin? Wala lang. Kasi nga, nililihim ko to e. Pero sigurado akong may hint ka naman kahit papano. Alam mo naman sigurong tinitingnan kita. Alam mo rin na ako yon. Wala ka lang sinabi, siyempre naman!

Mabasa mo man to o hindi, itong post na hindi ko talaga sinadyang isulat para umamin sa'yo, o kung mabasa man to ng isa kong friend na kilala ka na hindi alam na ayun... basta. Ang mahalaga ay alam ko ito.

Gusto parin kita.

Pero wag kang mag-alala, hindi naman ako yung super stalker no. Hindi na rin naman kita natitingnan ng personal mula nung graduation.

Okay na ko... kahit sa pictures lang.

^_^

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So into Pchy...

Yes, he even invaded my recent dreams! What is he doing in my mind? In my thoughts? He's dwelling and invading just everything! (Even my wallpapers both in PC and mobile)

I LOVE YOU PCHY!!! *fangirl scream*

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I'm Too Happy, I Cannot Believe It...!

Most of my net friends have been continuously pinging me on YM. Almost all of them wondered where I have been. Why? Simply because I wasn't the always-online-person they knew. I've been missing for about 2 weeks now. Yes, it seems to be a mysterious disappearance to nowhere and I owe a lot of people some sort of explanation.

As my closest friends all know, I love staying late for PCs and chatting with them. So when I was lost and missing in the cyberspace, it was a mystery.

Not really. :) I could occassionally PM them using my mobile phone, or when I go to school and login from there. And so they kept saying "Nabuhay ka!" or something like that. I could only laugh. I miss you guys.

I was missing and lost because I ruined my prized possession, my laptop. My desktop isn't fixed as well... sad to say, it will take a long time before I get it fixed. I don't have funds fot that yet. :P

Anyway, going to the title of this text, it's quite not connected. The title must be: I am mourning, right? But since I saw this person, ano hito... this kare... member of 3M, whatever you, me or my closest buddies address him, I became ecstatic! I never thought that I'd see him again after almost a year in this wide UP Diliman campus ACCIDENTALLY! Guuzen ja nai! Hahaha...

I'm so glad I walked along that place that morning...

Ureshii!!

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The Emotions Are Getting To Me...

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Hanyaaan...

It all began when I read yet another sad, sad, blog entry and some sort of conversation in a YM with one guyfriend. I don't really understand why I always "conduct" the sad feelings of a person far from me. Dang.

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Anyway, thanks to Zhang Jun Ning and I'm so alive today. Tee-hee. ♥

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Wasurenai Yo (originally posted at Multiply)

So there. Another day has come. Ah, boring start.
Anyway, I woke up 1 PM today and what surprised me was an invite from that person I promised to forget. The other day, I was just telling someone not to say something to remind me of that person. And so my post will tell the details on how this person came to me again lately...
It started while I was viewing some of my friends in FS's profiles. As I scrolled down on a certain person's comments, I saw that person's comment on this certain person's profile [getting confused? Okay. "certain person" and "that person" are two different guys ]. I could see that they still get to talk with each other. And that instance reminded me and flooded me with thoughts of that person. I shuddered.
That person is someone I wanted to forget. Why all of a sudden, these memories flooded by?
The night was over, and today came. I opened YM as soon as I woke up. I left the PC. Then after returning in an hour, there was this add to messenger list request.
I felt ecstatic (not that quite) and then...
I don't know how to react on this properly.

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Wasting Time (originally posted at Multiply)

Okay. Let me start tonight's post with something I am supposed to be doing. My PA 111 paper, our midterm exam that is take home. However, I can't seem to make myself start thinking about it seriously even though it's been almost a month since it was given to us and the deadline is on Thursday. I want to do it, but a lot of things hinder me from doing so. For example, I just found out that SA (Special* A anime) has been subbed till episode 20. I spent my afternoon watching from where I left (episode 15). And so my mind was preoccupied with Kei and Hikari romance, plus the newly revealed (though obvious from the start) Tadashi and Akira romance. And just a while ago, I chatted nonstop with friends from high school at YM, and got hooked on Leo Ku- a C-pop (Cantonese pop) singer and actor. He has these audibles with his songs "Monica", "Love and Honesty" and the other one (the funny one ). I really enjoyed the time spent, although obviously it's wasting time.
Now let's go to the part where it seems unrelated. Last night, my long-term (as in super long term) crush was online and I didn't know how to react well to it. I mean, come on, the temptation of looking at his web cam just got in to me. But of course, I prevented myself from doing that thing since it seems fangirlish (although admittedly I am his fan-girl since I'm addicted or affected by him since 2nd year high school). Anyway, upon ignoring him there, it was time for grilling pork and then later in the night after a sumptuous dinner, I just chatted with one of my high school friends- JM- and another, my longest guyfriend Roy. There were lots of topics and that, and I didn't notice that it's already past 12 (1:30 AM). Roy logged out earlier than that and JM and I talked and talked till I was disconnected and some DL's are done. So what happened next was I ate ice cream and listened to my Ultra CD 2 anime, kpop and jpop collection. I read a bit and was suddenly intercepted by my mom. I then went to sleep. So there.

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Yet Another Someone… (originally posted at Multiply)

I'm back. And after a long time, I need to state what I've been recently feeling towards somebody.
The first time I met him was at the first Env Sci 1 class meeting. I didn't notice him yet when I was in the classroom because I felt really bad that my classroom has to be in the secluded Villadolid Hall. Anyway, inside the classroom, I didn't know anyone yet and I just sleepily and silently sat at the seat near the aisle of the classroom. The class continued, and I kinda enjoyed it. My parents were waiting for it to end, inside the car which has the same color with my blouse that day.
I hurriedly ran towards them for I did not want to stall time. I planned to pay for the ID fee at the cashier and tried to find out if I could have my picture taken that very day. Before I stepped inside our car, I talked to my mom. He was just behind me, and I can see him and his motorcycle. I ignored him at first but I had a short glance, and I hopped in the car. I then decided to look at him from the inside. With his helmet now on, I could only see his eyes that seemed to look my way too. I felt some instant attraction as I look at this guy with the red motorcycle. And we left.
The next meetings, I found myself slightly interested in him. I knew where he frequently sits. I could tell where he is, and I looked for him first thing in the morning when I arrived at class. Slowly, something made me look his way every time. The way he looks, dresses, and his slight smile or laugh whenever our professor tells his jokes. I knew that I sorta developed a crush on him.
I had never said anything to him so far, none at all. I could only gaze at him from my seat, and when our glances meet, I avoid it immediately.  Sometimes, I walk with him towards the door, and we have nothing to say. At a certain time, we were standing in front of the desk side by side as we ask for yellow pad from sir. Of course we barely knew each other. I just knew his name from the attendance sheet. I wonder if he bothered to know my name.
And then, a nickname was formed. I call him now "Motorsiklo Guy". As usual, it is my common attitude to be the silent one. I did tell a few people about this, I mean, A FEW... and it's harder again since here I go with the staring game again. Useless, right? But what can I do? I could only look at him... I know this won't get me any further.

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Can’t Go On Like This… (Dramatic Multiply Post)

What has gotten into me?
He came by and went in front of me and whispered an unusual "Ohayou".
I greeted him back. We smiled.

There were a lot of  things that had occurred after that. We chatted. I seemed to ignore him. I tried my best to live with what I've promised to myself the other day-- I should not think and mind him even when he's around.
He sits beside me. I wavered... suddenly, I felt empty. Why can't I be able to say something other than my expressions of amazement when it comes to others? I can't even watch nor motivate him as he plays his turn. I can't look. I can't fall for him any longer.

Dame yo. Zettai... dame yo...

The ambiance is light when our group mates are around. I was able to tell tales from our English 1. He's listening. I told him some things about me-- even to others. I said I dislike my name. He mentioned nut. Yes, that's exactly why! He repeated my name, again and again. I said I'm irked. He stops, smiling. I smiled, but contentedly to myself. I saw that smile again. His stoic and poker face sometimes confuse me. He interacts with others. I stood beside the bench and I am reading  the book.

We talked about my liking on basketball. I said I do not play, and I'm definitely weak when it comes to balls. He suddenly mentioned before that that "I play," we all looked at him. "Really?" I asked, "Yeah, it's not obvious, right?" he replies jokingly. Joanna thought for a while, "You're tall. So I think so you can." I thought for a while too. Wow. Wow. This is so not the person I want to leave. Not the one I would grieve on because I cannot meet him anymore after summer. Not the person I won't be able to spend the rest of my nonsense days... not the person who could change my life...

It's actually him.

And it saddened me.

It's my turn again.I play, get a zero. He was the one scoring.

It can't be helped either. I end up laughing with him, standing so close to him, staring at him. I think of other things to think of. Ah, the book. yes. I borrowed it in order to set a path for me. I should read it while he's around--  that way I won't mind him. His closeness triggers me to glance at him occasionally.

He glances back. We stared at each other for a brief moment. He turns back, I do too.

This is getting less awkward, but there's this time...

We sit beside each other. Nothing to do. I wasn't scoring. I heard him puff a bit of a sigh, or was it a "Hn". We do not speak with each other. Silence. Occasional laughs by our fellow group mates.

John was making me laugh. He was telling that the shot was "for you". I laughed away, watching my pins closely...

Going back to 'him', he motivated me, telling me to slow down and analyze my moves. I just smiled. I spare balled. After my turn it was his, and I peeked as I read the book I am reading. I stared at his back. His blue and white shirt appeals to me. I like him a lot. And it breaks me slowly. The more that I know I'm definitely attracted to him, the more I get hurt inside.

This is not happening!

Yuji strikes. I cheered. We all cheered. Thus, Yuji's angels were formed.

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It takes two to... Tango

Definitely I'm not a dancer, nor does he. I just wanted to imply what this statement means. And so here is how my post starts. Let's talk about this new guy in my life.

It all started with that laminated paper turned fan. Yes, a paper laminated in order to serve as a fan to cool you down on hot days. Sad enough, the manongs at the alumni Center do not turn on the electric fans and so what he does is to bring out that fan and "refresh" us. Specifically, me.

He and I are lane partners technically when missing nin number 7 didn't show up for PE class. I do love scoring the games of my classmates and new found friends. And so he is. We took turns in scoring, watching each game and advising one another on what the score is. We got pretty close after that.

When a female classmate's turn was over, we both looked at the scoresheet and muttered, "It's our turn next" or in Filipino in short terms, "Tayo na pala ulit". I agreed, replying "Kami na nga" to our classmate. She snickered, teasing us that "kayo na ulit? Uy!" meaning that "we're in a relationship again". That we utterly denied.

After our games, we waited for everyone to finish.

-okay, so I hesitated to post this months ago because this was to explicit for him to know. but since the truth is OUT, I'm posting this to the public-

obviously this post is unfinished. well it appears okay, at least the thing was preserved.... :)

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There He Goes… (1st Multiply Post)

Alas, a new blog in a new multiply account. If not because of someone, I would not create a new one. Anyway, this post, this very first post will be dedicated to another person.

There he goes... he passes by the right side and sits beside me. He came from behind, and he's there to check the scoresheet as always.

I glanced occasionally as usual, and pretended not to feel anything else but this normal feeling in a usual situation running for a week and a day already. He's been like this, and I've been scoring the games. He too scores, for I know well that he enjoys marking the scoresheet as much as I do.

We had a little talk. The topic was utmost boring. It was about my ballpen. I proudly told him that the pen he's currently using was mine since high school. I don't know if it got him amazed or doubtful, but he lauded me for that. He even took a closer look at my black Tombow pen. We then shifted the topic of our short conversation. I then noticed that everyone were behind us while we took our watch on the game.

His number in the record is 9, while mine is 10. We are supposed lane partners, but then there's a  missing nin number 8 so I was paired with John. However, this week, John went to a conference at Leyte. Thus, we play our frames at the same time.
He has this habit of holding the ball close to his face, as if he's targetting the duckpins. I watch closely his move, for even before I took interest on him, I admired his playing skills. His accuracy is way better than mine. He does a break, a spare and all that. He even has his cheer squad as I call them. Everytime I praise and laud him, he just shyly looks down and murmurs something to me and to himself.

Not long after our brief encounters, I started talking to him more. I had an inkling that he likes games, so I took notice of the laminated hand fan he always brings to class. I asked how much was the cost for lamination. He replied that he already forgot. Then our classmate asked what character is the drawing from. He scratched his head shyly telling us that it is from a certain game. Then and there, I concluded that he is in to what I like.

A day later, we talked again, this time while Christmas was scoring. He suddenly mentioned that he took Hapon 10, a Japanese beginner's subject at our school. I was enthralled. It is because it's so rare for an Engineering student to be able to enroll on a Foreign language. We do not have electives for that, and it is considered lucky to have your adviser agree on you taking a foreign lang. Well he actually did, and we started asking questions about it.

When Christmas' turn finally came, we sat beside each other and continued our talk. I knew something about this seemingly Chinito, and I do like what he likes. We have a lot in common. And so everytime class starts, my eyes automatically search for him and I make sure I do have an opportunity to talk to him.

And so, there he goes... to the left exit. I saunter towards him and a classmate, thinking of what topic I could open up to them.

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I'm in Love. Right now. Again?!

Whew. Multiple Categs. Again and again.

Mata. Mata. Mata. Haha Oro plata mata? Nope. Mata in Japanese is "again". That 'other' mata means whatever. (not interested) Anyway, a while ago, JM-kun, my friend came over to our house as we finish something important. After dinner, we watched TV. It was just about to start. PBB Teen Edition PLUS. Yeah, it's quite a boring show at first for me (I wasn't really hooked, you know) but when I saw him, I changed my mind.

Haha. Very fickle minded me again. Here comes this again. Hahaha. I could only laugh. If only you could see how I reacted.

Do you really believe you'll see something you don't expect to see? I mean, come on. This got real. He got real. He's now real. He was real, but he wasn't. This time I know he's real. I saw him real. Yes, it is true that he's real.

See that point? Hahahaha. I could only laugh. No one's reading this blog anyway! HaAHAHAH!

I guess I'd end up saying this:

This is what happened earlier: JM and I were proofreading when I closed my laptop and turned to the TV. He commented, "You know what, that guy... he might be the one fit to become the role of the prince. It's just what we're looking for. We might recruit him if this would be live!"

I looked closely at the screen. Zoom that. "Oh yeah, that was my new crush. Hmn... you're right! You're good, dude!" I exclaimed. "That's how I expect him to look like. That skin color..."

We laughed. "So is this a sign or something?" he asked.

I shook. "Dunno." I continued staring at the screen. "Oh no..." I began to feel a bit dazed. "JM, this is happening again."

I held into my chest and gasped. "Yes. This is happening again!" I affirmed.

He was weirded by it, and he didn't react at first. He talked about something again, and when 'he' was focused on the screen, my heart thumped rapidly.

"This... I'm falling in love again!" I exclaimed.

"Why you..." he jokingly answered. "So that's how it is! That's Kurt!"

"Yeah, it's Kurt!"

We decided to brand 'him' as Kurt. We grinned. "So the other guy must be Esteban."

I shook my head. "No, his eyes are not larger."

"And that guy is 'malamya'"

I grinned. After a while of watching, I just decided, it's time to reveal how I feel this time...

"HE's now MY Certified Crush! I LIKE HIM!"

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And so it goes, now I'm love-struck. I wonder how far will this go now that 3 of them had just began to fade away?

It's TV. It's purely TV.

If he wins, I'm pretty sure WE (JM and I) will do something.

^^

Weirded. Dazed. Is there a word called weirded? Dunno. I just knew it from the first time.

I'm in Love. Right now. Again?!

.... with you, Robi. ^^

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Kami-sama Onegaishimasu!

I just saw the Taiwanese dubbed "Sana Maulit Muli" entitled "Chances" on Taiwanese TV. It was aired last Feb 18, I guess (or was it on March? whatever) in Taiwan. It's so cool. I like the seiyuu for each cast. It's funny, since I am used in watching Taiwanese faces talking in Filipino, but to see Filipino faces talking in Taiwanese... it's so funny for me. Being a fan of Taiwanese drama, it's some sort of pride for Filipino dorama addicts like me. Personally, I liked the plot of that soap, especially since it discussed high school lives in a dramatic level. Sibling rivalry, discrimination of poor from rich, unrequited love--all of which it showed--was so good that's why it's one of the soaps in Filipino TV I watched closely (besides "Maging Sino Ka Man" and "Pangako sa 'Yo").

Though it's Kim and Gerald's first primetime show on TV, it garnered 33% something over-all ratings (much higher than what Goong received on its motherland). Maybe because the competitor (GMA 7) showed something "not better" (I forgot what they were showing that time). Oh well, if there would be some torrent of that show (Tw dubbed), I'd grab it and download all 60 eps! (haha, the pirate I am) Anyway, it's worth your time although they say the plot was copied after "If Only..." (the movie). Moreover, I am an absolute KimErald fan. (Yeah right!)

It's just now that I survived from sleepyness since my "kareshi" stayed at our place til 4 AM. That one made me sleepy for around 1 day. After a heck of sleep on Saturday afternoon and early sleep on Saturday night, I survived. Now I'm back, and ready for school tomorrow. And the usual Math 11 quiz every morning is to come. I wonder what ____ _'s get-up would be, or _____ ___'s too...

Anyway, I bought a headset (finally) already. It's so nice. (Actually, it's intended for an Ipod) Now, I'm listening to my fave tunes. The song right now is "Juukuji no NYUUSU" ("19:00 News" also translated as "7'oclock News"). The lyrics is for guys who are dying to announce his long-term relationship to a girl who hides it from everyone, and has lots of suitors. It has a nice beat, tune and Tokio sang it for KodoCha (anime). The lyrics is soooo nice. I'm so in loved with this song for a month now.

I'm getting more excited for a lot of things in summer. Next Acad Year, I might be transferring to a new College Unit at UP Diliman. I didn't survive Engineering. I knew this would happen, since it's not my forte and interest. (another thing is about the people in IE--I have nothing against you--but I don't feel like I belong with them) I'm more inclined in Political Issues and in writing stuff. Hopefully, if accepted in a Pre-law course (Either in CSSP or NCPAG), I'd continue studying Bachelor of Laws. Scary, right? I mean, it's not like me to take things seriously like this and make a grand plan.

Whatever happens, I just want to enjoy College life in total, have my final week at UPD for AY 07-08 end happily, take my upcoming exams seriously, pass my papers on time, have my grand reunion with CSFT5S barkada, attend Ozine Fest '08, try if I could cosplay, enroll for summer, apply to other Colleges, pass summer classes (with 1's on it AGAIN! what a dream...), get a new mobile phone... finally... GET INTO A NEW COLLEGE for AY 2008-2009! (God, I'm getting older. There'd be a new batch of freshies this year.)

So much to expect, so much to do, so much responsibilities to handle, so much to hope and pray for. I hope kami-sama guides me. This would be my last chance in life!

"Kami-sama, onegaishimasu!"

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