Guuzen

It definitely was coincidence at all. Or if it is, then it should be great.

When I plan and hope to see him, it ends up a failure. I always see to it to look for his father, because I know well where and what time he arrives. Earnestly, I hope that he tags along, but seriously I know that he's not into going to church as  I do.

There were exactly three noticeable times I saw him looking my way. The first one was during a random Sunday morning, maybe because I stare at him too much. The second one was on a Sunday afternoon Vesper service. I certainly did not recognize him coming our way because I was busy talking. He appeared right before me, sitting just a few inches beside me. We shook hands that day as for the congregational greeting rites. Nothing special, I guess for him. But to me, it was bliss.

The third and last one was just 2 Sundays ago. I didn't know again that he was coming. It's been an awful 5 months that I haven't seen him. Very well then, he was there. And on cue, I looked his way and unbelievably, his gaze was just right on. My way. Definitely. I felt uneasy because I don't feel like I look like someone worth his time gazing. So I looked away, pretended it was nothing.

Occasional glances followed, of course by me. Then the service ended, making me wanna go to the wash room shortly. When I left, he was with his family on the kneeling area. When I returned, my mom told me that I should've stayed. She said that he was certainly looking for me in a way, because he stood still near the pew we were sitting just when they are about to leave. I didn't believe her. I saddened, since I missed the chance to further see him.

Upon my exit to the church. he was standing right in front of me. He was wearing a red, white- striped shirt in that sunny Sunday. I glanced his way and turned right, going to the newsstand. He did look happy while talking to his siblings. I tried to peek again. Then I left. In our car, I tried to see his blurred image through the window one more time. I guess that will be another last time.

Will he be coming this Sunday, tomorrow?

I hope so. :)

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Wasting Time

Okay. Let me start tonight's post with something I am supposed to be doing. My PA 111 paper, our midterm exam that is take home. However, I can't seem to make myself start thinking about it seriously even though it's been almost a month since it was given to us and the deadline is on Thursday. I want to do it, but a lot of things hinder me from doing so. For example, I just found out that SA (Special* A anime) has been subbed till episode 20. I spent my afternoon watching from where I left (episode 15). And so my mind was preoccupied with Kei and Hikari romance, plus the newly revealed (though obvious from the start) Tadashi and Akira romance. And just a while ago, I chatted nonstop with friends from high school at YM, and got hooked on Leo Ku- a C-pop (Cantonese pop) singer and actor. He has these audibles with his songs "Monica", "Love and Honesty" and the other one (the funny one ). I really enjoyed the time spent, although obviously it's wasting time.

Now let's go to the part where it seems unrelated. Last night, my long-term (as in super long term) crush was online and I didn't know how to react well to it. I mean, come on, the temptation of looking at his web cam just got in to me. But of course, I prevented myself from doing that thing since it seems fangirlish (although admittedly I am his fan-girl since I'm addicted or affected by him since 2nd year high school). Anyway, upon ignoring him there, it was time for grilling pork and then later in the night after a sumptuous dinner, I just chatted with one of my high school friends- JM- and another, my longest guyfriend Roy. There were lots of topics and that, and I didn't notice that it's already past 12 (1:30 AM). Roy logged out earlier than that and JM and I talked and talked till I was disconnected and some DL's are done. So what happened next was I ate ice cream and listened to my Ultra CD 2 anime, kpop and jpop collection. I read a bit and was suddenly intercepted by my mom. I then went to sleep. So there.

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Kimi Dake wo

...Kimi dake wo

Atashi dake wo

Taiyou no KISU

Uketomete

Doko made mo

Tsunagattetai...

Zenbu aishite ne...!

I like this song! It's just sad that I haven't finished Bokura ga Ita. I'm bummed. I want to do a lot of things that I could actually do, but I have no interest this time. I just want to stay calm and relaxed like this.

I just bought a マリオ sticker (name sticker) at Megamall last time Kog, Edrick and I went out. I's so much worthwhile. I was glad I bought one and sticked it on my TV. Haha.

Although I don't get to see him, I still watch Witch Yoo Hee wherein he looks like Jae Hee--the Korean actor playing the role of Marlon (Filipino dubbed name, yeah I know...) on the show. So then I wasn't lonely at all. Besides, a lot of people keep me company lately.

I just hope HAZEL-PC gets fixed and I could have some things from my own money (which hasn't been touched since 2007 October). Gah!

Whatever happens, he's still here... in my 心. Yeah!

P.S.: Chinito wasn't around earlier. Good thing エイドリアン was there. :P

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It's been an awful while...

I'm beginning to wonder if this font color could be read in my dark background...

Hisashiburi da ne. I wonder if I could say that right in front of my ex-bowling mates. Or at least, to マリオ.

Finally I've decided to use the Japanese font on his name. I've been renting PCs while posting to my blog here since I post when I am at Quezon City--particularly at UP Diliman or at Philcoa.

It's been days since bowling class ended. Exactly 6 days. I haven't lost communication with Yuji. We've been texting nonstop because of Unlitxt20. Sure, it's fun to talk with him through nonsense blabbering. I almost forgot what my sadness was about.

I did have a happy time while spending my vacation, especially when I went to Vesper Service at Ellinwood Malate Church.

To break the sad mood again, allow me to talk about my other apple of the eye, "Chinito".

Chinito. That's just how we address him. He's a Chinito by looks, and he drives their black cool car. He has a brother and a little sister and a dad. This Vesper service was our first time ever, and I was shocked that his family also went to the Vesper service as well. And the best part here was he sat beside me… and I got the chance to shake hands with him.

That was our first close encounter. He appears to be a weird guy, but I like his utter weirdness for it suits his persona and aura. He has little perks that makes him cuter. He barely looks at me, and I was feeling very awkward--for there's this mean distance between us. Of all places, why would they sit there? Such coincidence… and my mom's prediction was right. :)

When it's almost time for benediction, his family as usual went at the kneeling area. I wonder what he thinks about me, I cannot directly look at him. I'm still a bit shy around this person--since Chinito and I haven't been introduced personally.

Oh well, I'll tell what will happen this coming Sunday... I hope it's a good one. ^_^

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